Googled my Name

As usual, I was online strolling the web. I then googled my name and came upon I typed in my name and this is what I found.

What does the name Patasa mean?

Is Patasa a girl or a boy name and what is the origin of Patasa?

Patasa is Girl/Female gender and its origin is Arabic, Muslim, Pashtun

Patasa means: Sort of Candy

The Horoscope and Astrology meaning of Patasa.

Patasa means:

With a Life Path 4, my numbers are (4, 13/4, 22/4, 31/4). The number four derives its meaning from creation. It is a lucky number and offers stability, wholeness, order justice, building a strong foundation, honesty, integrity, loyalty, conscientiousness. In Hebrew four represents measuring, beneficence, and intelligence. In Hindu four is totality and perfection. To the Pythagorean, four is perfection and justice negatively. Number 4 relates to conviction, inability to adapt and laziness.

Thirteen is neither a lucky nor an unlucky number. It signifies purity and progress to a higher level of existence. The number 13 from a biblical point of view is said to be a great blessing and promise. To the US, 13 stripes represent the original 13 colonies that rebelled against British rule. Biologically, thirteen represents the age of male or female maturity.

Twenty-two which is a number of power and accomplishment is considered the master builder, with divine imagination and great charisma. It has the ability to realize very giant or imaginable projects because of its capacity of precision and balance. Number twenty-two persons are idealistic, creative and pragmatic. Some of their negative attributes include: anxiety, nervousness and they are immovable, stubborn and can let others down. The biblical meaning of twenty-two symbolizes disorder and chaos and represents disorganization.

The number thirty-one represents practical, yet creative, energy. Thirty-one resonates with creative pragmatism. Although an oxymoron, it’s also a description of the energies the number 31 represents. The practical aspect of 31 determines the steps to reach goals according to what has worked before. The creative aspect of 31 brings creativity into the process. The result generally is a better way of doing things, of accomplishing certain end points or goals. The numerology essence of the number 31 has a sense of worthiness. It knows itself as sufficient to do what needs to be done. Reaching goals, getting somewhere, attainment by a step-by-step process is always in 31’s focus. Accomplishing a secure foundation for the future is the strongest focus of all, an even more secure foundation.

Meaning of Patasa by its letters

Patasa name means:

P: Meaning of P in the name Patasa means: P has a heavy top standing on just a point to show its strength. It means strong, the ability to perceive weakness and opportunities easily and clear-sightedness. By standing on its own, it shows self-centeredness, a thriving attitude and rigorousness. P also shows disconnection, strong will to go even alone and impartiality.

A: Meaning of A in the name Patasa means: The letter A has two bars connected at a pointed edge and a cross-bar holding them together. From an open end to a pointed edge signifies that all energies are trained to a point to achieve the most singularly important goal. The cross-bar shows caution. Failure is avoided by stringing all required resources together. An also looks like a Pyramid with the peak as the apex of the Pyramid. Pyramids are iconic. A therefore symbolizes prominence and a desire to be recognized for ones achievements. The cross bar also represents a rung on a ladder. To get to the top, one has to first step on the rung. It also means originality, a strong will power and an enterprising ability. The upper-case version consists of the two slanting sides of a triangle, crossed in the middle by a horizontal bar. It shows aspiration, the dominance to be successful, positive attitude, an optimistic world view and egotism.

T: Meaning of T in the name Patasa means: T is a vertical strand crossed at the top by a horizontal strand. With the top strand balanced in the middle by the vertical strand, T shows balance and stability in its ways. It is also forgoing and spiritual. With the top strand projected up by the bottom strand, T is highly ambitious, but also kind to others as it can let others rest on its horizontal top. This makes T selfless, cooperative, womanly and dutiful. It also displays a high degree of generosity and liberalism.

S: Meaning of S in the name Patasa means: S is a single strand that goes forward and backwards. It shows a willingness to explore. Friendliness, perceptiveness and accommodating are all S qualities. The ends pointing forward and backwards shows a conflicting nature with itself and a degree of puzzlement.

Meaning of Patasa in Louisana language

I found my  name in the UK Creole dictionary online @  It states: Patasa n. is the generic name applied to several species of freshwater fish of the sunfish family. A long time ago people made court-bouiIlon with sunfish”. A fish broth made with water, white wine, spices and butter. There are at least eight species of sunfish in Louisiana, including the Bluegill, Scarlet Sunfish, Red-Breasted Bream, Round Sunfish, Green Sunfish, Longear Sunfish, Redear Sunfish and Big-mouthed perch; A Big-mouth perch is a bass that is larger than the others and it has a mouth about as wide as that of a perch.

In addition to those findings, In a book, edited by Albert Valdan and Kevin J. Rottet called “The Dictionary of Louisiana French: As Spoken in Cajun, Creole, and American Indian Communities” on page 446, reads… patassa [patasa] n.m Any of various freshwater fish of the sunfish family (e.g. bluegill, warmouth, crappie, bream) often locally called “perch” or “sun perch” (although not technically true perch).

Sterling A. Brown said in his book, “A Negro Looks at the South”, in the section titled ‘Return of the Native” on page 353 that Barbus Patasa, a kind of fish that seems to be a combination of brim or perch with catfish. The “barbus” refers to the “whisker-like” protrusions, as are found on the catfish. Some of those sunfish can be found at the beautiful, non-smoking, popular fishing location named Camp Patasa in Sabine Parish, Louisiana.

Several year ago, a taxi driver mentioned that my name meant sweet. But I never knew that sunfish shared my name or that it was part of the creole language. My name is unique yet popular and I am every bit of its definition. I can truly say that I am a strong, intelligent, honest woman, filled with integrity, loyalty, and I am a conscientious big mouth sweetheart.




The battle is not mine, it’s the people

Adding more drama to my life that is already filled with pain. Hear my Chicago Police Brutality story on CBS CHICAGO NEWS. My story aired last night at 10 pm. It is also featured online.

Have you noticed that all the major cases, mostly murders, involving blacks, happened around traffic and/or transportation. Well, that is exactly my case. Thank God it didn’t kill me.

Although I will be compensated for my pain and suffering, I am not happy. A price will never replace the damage that this has caused me. I am trying to push past this, but it is hard.

If these cops are never held responsible for their wrong doing, things will never change. I hope my case can make a difference. I want him fired! Please help me speak.



Time Lost is a Big Step

Everyone knows me. Yet, I vaguely know them. Some, I do remember and most I call my younger brother about. I honestly have a blockage. I truly do. I can’t seem to remember people, places or things in my life. Maybe it’s because we moved many times during my young age and I went to various schools. I know that I’ve suppressed many things and many years of my life. Maybe hypnosis or a shrink will help to reveal what I’ve lost. Maybe I’m not missing anything much but tragedy.

Sitting here on my sofa, at my laptop, with my eyes closed tight. I am trying to think back as far as I can. I want to remember. I want to know why I am who I am. I want to know Patasa. What I know so far about Patasa is that she is a loving, caring, and a giving person. However, she has this thing about her. Something bitchy, if i may say. She can be quite a pistol if you rub her the wrong way. Nonetheless, she is a very beautiful person.

What caused my blockage? I am not an expert in psychology but I do know that a mental blockage is an uncontrollable suppression, or repression of painful or unwanted thoughts/memories. Hell, I had many and plenty painful or unwanted thoughts/memories. Let’s name a few…

  1. Dad beating mom
  2. Getting bullied in grammar school
  3. Getting teased about my lips
  4. Being called “heavy handed man”
  5. Molested as a child
  6. Molested/Raped as a teen
  7. My Mother’s boyfriends/husbands
  8. My family
  9. My children
  10. My behavior towards men
  11. Deaths around me

This is it! This is what’s causing my blockage. To people, Patasa’s bitchiness comes out as Rage, as Angry or Bitter. All that I can say is, going through all of this created Patasa. This is quite a bit to break a bitch down; way down! This is where my perseverance and strength comes from. This is where my zero tolerance comes from. This may be why I don’t have many friends. This may be why I never married. OMG, I want to push over and beyond this, and when I do, watch me be who I was destined to be. For now, I do have a wish for those around me… Treat me with respect and love me for me.

Don’t call for my story, you will have the opportunity to read about it.

Yours Truly,







Peaceful Tasting

Masquerade, by George Benson, has been popping into my mind, out of no where, over the last few days. (So I pulled it up on Youtube). Maybe my mind is trying to find solace in this game we play? This mind of mine has been traveling down memory lane, recapturing my good and bad moments. While the sweet voice, beautiful lyrics and lovely tunes from the instruments played calms my soul, I can’t help but to wonder why we carry on this way.

I wonder what life phase this is that has my long term memories resurfacing? Maybe it’s time to deal with the things that has bothered me over the years. Maybe it’s time for closure. Maybe this is the stage before happiness. Yes, that’s it! I’m in ‘The Pursuit of Happiness”.  I want happiness so bad that I can taste it. Life does move in phases. When this thing called life is figured out, and our conscious mind is conscious, it makes it very hard to deal with the unconscious. They steal your your joy and instead of moving towards happiness, you drop in levels and you find yourself back in that unhappy space.

However, when the silence isn’t quiet, and it feels like it’s getting hard to breathe, and you feel like dying, RISE UP in spite of it all and be unafraid like Andra Day says. Keep searching because I will.


It has showed up and showed out. It has shown it’s face with thousands on thousands of smiles! It has given me a feel of freedom to be myself again.  It will take me to the levels of the unheard. It is a beautiful thing. It is something that all preyed should experience.

Before acting, place yourself in the other person’s shoes. You never know what one is going through, so “be humble, sit down” as Kendrick Lamar says. You just might learn a thing or two during your silence.

I love you Justice.